Thanks.

So I know I am having fun confusing Gil. I am writing both in this blog and my other one. The other one is for more personal reasons that I do not wish to have people read. This one is just the one that both Katt and myself can enjoy writing on and not caring what people say or anything. So I decided to write in this blog for I have not wrote in it in a wile. I have been writing more personal blogs on my other account. But yeah I think today is one of the best days Ive had in a little while now even though I feel like udder shit cause of a conversation I had late last night. But what the person said is true. (Holly is you read this I am not telling you the person) But I realized I am what Cyrus said...a heart breaker. Sad thing is I enjoy hurting people the way I have been hurt in the past....But only certain people for some reason i dont hurt. Its kind of weird. Maybe its because they make or made me feel as I once did about two and a half years ago....I dont really know. I just know that I know people who help me through the darkness I am consumed in. Its like they are my saviors and I thank those people from the deep depths of my heart in helping me realize I can love and can care even after what I have been through...Id specially like to thank my shining star for she has been there through a lot and helped me and listened to me when I felt as if I had no one else. (holly Im not telling you who that is either) I thank Shelby too for she ha given me great advice Friday night when she told me that if I just opened up a little, tried to be happy how much better off Id be and how much more Id feel as if I had someone in my life to help me. Thanks everyone for alot of your help. Also I want to thank Gil for giving me something to think about a lot over the past Id say week. He told me I needed to be selfish and take the things I want and not help every person I can to create more difficulties in my life. Well Gil finally I have though about it and you are right. Im going to try as hard as I can to make myself happy and I am happy to say I have amazing people...like my shining star...that will be there to help me along the way. Also mostly Id like to thank Holly B. cause she has been there through thick and thin and still even when I have been an ass she never left my side and still tried to help me through all the problems I have faced. She is a true friend and just about the best friend someone could ask for. Thanks for not giving up on me and thank for sticking around...and tis the reason why you are my wife lol.