Okayyyy

So well I had a meeting with Jamie today and well we talked about a lot of things. We talked a lil about my break which I will write about in another blog and some about school. I have been told that to be what I wanna be I dont have to go to school for 12 more years of collage but more like about 6 which isnt great but a lot better than 12. Jamie explained the difference between what I was thinking about being and what I wanted to be. I so dont know the names of them but I know the difference now lol. But yeah I have to...starting tomorrow, going to class, paying attention and going to all the classes and doing the work for 21 days to get into the habit if doing it regularly. So I guess tomorrow I will get on trying to do that...Hopefully I can do it so I can do better in school. I was thinking about going to the night school program but I dont think Id be able to do it. I sucked when I went to regular high school so why wouldnt I suck going to night school? They are the same way. Maybe its cause Im too hard on myself ya know? Well I duno hopefully I can just get through high school here and Just get on with the things I need to do and everything. Get somewhere in this life called hell. Its all you really can do. I mean otherwise youd be stuck in the same place in life for the rest of your life and who really wants to do that? Cause then it would suck the most and I just dont want to deal with that. Le sigh why does life have to be so hard?