Lifes just too short...

So today was a long day. I had many emotions go through me today that well pretty much will happen for the next few days. I have felt anger, depression, numbness, aggravation, I have felt like giving up, I have felt like nothing matters. Soo many thoughts have gone through my head and well not one thing has helped me through any of this...Right now I am just cold and I feel more alone now than I think I have ever felt before. Most of the time when I feel alone I have realized that I wasnt really feeling alone. I was more feeling hurt and broken. But now at this moment and time and Moments before this and moments after this I will feel completely alone. Like I feel as if no one would understand but I know that is not the truth. I know people feel as I do right now every day but just I dont think anyone could help me..or at least I wouldnt let someone help me. I mean obviously if Im feeling this way I am meant to feel this way for a reason...the reason Im feeling it is unknown but hey Im not looking for any answers. I am accepting this fact and well I am just doing what I know can help me through times like this....write and write more. Life is too short to dwell on the past but it is also too short to fuckin sit and wonder things. Im choosing to live my life one day at a time not knowing whats going to happen next and well it came to my attention that well....I dont really care anymore. Im just going to do me and try to make it through the year. I mean Im already fucking up this school year and for what? Nothing. Im skipping cause Im choosing to fall right into the same steps I took last year....Im getting ISS and sad thing is that last year I didnt even get ISS and I did alot more shit last year than this year. Like what the hell am I doing with my life? NOTHING! I pretty much have nothing and pretty much if I keep doing what Im doing Im going to amount to nothing. Im sick of my life...more than anyone would fucking realize. like right now Im sitting here so damn close to crying cause I realize what Im doing to myself. I fucking hate all of this and I cant fucking do this anymore. If I do Im going to stress myself out to much and Im going to do a hella lot of things Im going to regret....