Live A Lie, Put On A Act

To me things are galling apart
Nothing seems to be going right
Too much hurt
Too much pain

I talk to people
Get their input
Yet nothings helping
Its still hurting

The pain inside
My emotions
Its getting to be
Too much

The one thing that helps
The one thing I could do
I cant or
I hurt even more

Cutting...
Seeing the scarlet lines
Being drawn across my arm
It feels like a sanctuary

Like I can escape everything
Be happy
Forget whats happening
Help me be free

Still I cant do it
Not to where anyone knows
Cause if it happens
I loose everything

I loose my family
More importantly
My nieces and nephews
The only ones who matters

Think and think more
Find a way
To escape
Yet not to get found out about

Act like everything is normal
Act like nothing happening
Lie when asked
Tell them you didnt do it

Know in your mind
The the beautiful
Scarlet lines
Are laying across your arm

Make sure to keep it hidden
Dont let no one find out
Remember finding out
Means loosing your life

Cant let that happen
Wont let that happen
Remind yourself to
Act and lie

Put on a smile
Make people believe youre happy
that things are getting better
Live your lie

Still cut every night
Secretly and long
No more pain
No more hurt

Just make sure
No one finds out...