Monday, September 28, 2009

Confused and fears

So my therapist made me realize how many fears I have. Its really horrible and 90 percent of the time I am thinking about it. I really never realized how bad my fears were until I knew all of them. Like the fears I realized are driving me nuts....mainly because they are my worst fears. I have a fear of staying single, I have a fear of relationships, I have a fear of loosing control, I have a fear of not knowing what's going to happen, I have a fear of getting hurt. All these fears keep me what could make me happiest. Like I drive myself nuts cause Im always single and like I don't know what to do. Like I hate being alone because I have a fear of always being alone. Like what am I suppose to do? I want so badly to have someone, but Im afraid of being hurt. And like if I get in a relationship I could get hurt but I don't know if that would happen and I hate that and Im afraid Ill get hurt or hurt the person I am with and like I don't want to do that so I don't date people. Like what the hell am I suppose to do? I don't want to be stuck being single because well I hate being alone all the time and it also makes me hate when Im around people who are in a relationship because like I feel even lonelier. Like I don't know what to do...Im scared of being hurt so much that I cant date. And all I really want is to have someone there for me. Like I dunno Im so confused...

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