Past and stress..

Yesterday I some how got my guardian to let me go to Scotts house even though Im grounded. It was cool. We went to his grandmothers house and chilled there for a little while and then finally went to his house. We watched this movie called Cademned.( I don't know how to spell it.) It was a good movie but I didn't get to watch it all cause I got picked up at 5:30 and had to go home. I think my kittens get mad at me when I sleep cause I cant pet them. I woke up with three scratches on my hands that weren't there when I went to bed. But its okay I know they love me when I am awake. And thats only because I feed them and without me they couldn't eat. Na Im kidding I know they love me. There names are Soven and Sunset.(Sunset makes me sound like a hippy XD) THey are both guys and they both drive me crazy. They like to keep me awake at night when I try to sleep. Its quite annoying. When I sit in my bed Soven like tries to maul me so I pet him. Its funny. Gil makes me mad. He's trying to make me take another class so I can get more credit....but I like my laid back schedule. But I dunno maybe it will be good. I mean I know they only want me to do good but its hard enough for me to concentrate in school. But I push myself to do it anyways. I ahve to graduate next year no matter what. No one in my family has. Everyone keeps dropping out in high school and then all the pressure gets put on me. Like everyone keeps saying how I have to break the chain and I don't think they realize how much that makes me stressed and makes me stop trying. I hate how everyone expects me to be. Like it makes me just want to do the opposite so they cant sit there and pressure me anymore. I hate it so much. Back when I lived with my dad he use to tell me how I better graduate and go to collage cause I had to be the one who took care of him when he got old, but then he kicked me out. When I moved into Nancys and Holleys He told Nancy to have me drop out and get a job. So like it seems that after I left his house he didn't care anymore. Like he doesn't realize that I am not a mommas girl or a daddys girl and thats what he wants. Thats the reason why he seems to favor my sisters Katrina and Cassie. They always stick with him and stay on his side. I know how he is and I tend to end up hating him for the things he has done. I will never forgive him but Im not saying what the things he did that I wont forget. But its pretty bad and its not completely proven....but I believe it happened because of the way my father is. But again...Im not getting into it. I really don't know what else to talk about so Im just going to go cause I need to write another blog tonight anyways.