Thoughts thoughts and more thoughts cont'

So I have a friend who likes me and I keep getting asked how I feel about her. And well truthfully I never thought about it. I mean I know how i feel when Im around her but I dont think too hard about the situation. Like when shes around things are calm, funny and easy. I mean she seems really trust worthy and shes madd chill.I love chillin with her and plus we do madd stupid shit like quote Twilight and new moon. But like its all cool cause me and her are having fun so I dont care what other people are thinking....not that I really ever care about what other people think but anyways...Back to what I was talking about. Like I know the person who likes me but I wont say her name cause I know she doesnt want a ton of people to know. A few people know but I wasnt the one who said anything...ANYWAYS....back again to what I was talking about, Like I try not to think about how I feel about her cause Im very sketchy when it comes to relationships. I just believe that what will happen is that Ill get hurt or cheated on or someone will go wrong. And thats because thats how all my relationships end up. I dont think about it cause Im scared to know, Im scared to know cause of what can or can not happen. Do you get what I mean? If you dont well then thats too bad cause Thats as best as I can explain it. But like...le sigh...I dunno what to do about anything and like me and Holly have talked about all of this and still...I gots nothing. I dunno anymore...